Last Summer...(:

Last summer i was a nanny for three little boys, and i loved them. i would wake up everyday at seven and go to baby sit till 1 in the afternoon. We all know little boys, and how if they get board they get into trouble. So instead of sitting around all day and watching t.v. i would take them to do things. I would take them hiking, to waterfalls, swimming, we would play water games in the backyard, picnics for lunch, and other things like that. They loved me and i loved them. In my eyes it was one of the most perfect ways to spend summer. i love kids and getting to be with 3 everyday was sometimes hard, but usually rewarding. Let me tell you about these 3 little boys that have been such a good example to me.

Luke: He is 8 years old, maybe nine now. He is a very smart good, it amazes me how much he knows. He can tell you almost anything you need to know about a car, and he is good at working with wood. He's favorite team is the San Deigo Chargers, and he wasnt too happy when LaDainian Tomlinson switched teams. Luke plays baseball, but likes all sports. He loves to go camping, hiking, dirt biknig, four-wheeling, fishing, and almost anything out doors. But he also enjoys watching t.v., playing computer games, or playing the play station. Sometimes he fights with his two younger brothers, but i consider him the peace maker. One of his best friends is my neighbor Cody. I love watching them play. They always are out having fun. Luke was always the one who listened to me the best. probably because he was the oldest. His two younger brothers look up to him very much and they'd always get uspet when he had to go to something like scouts. Usually i had to distract them so he could escape. It was sometimes a pain, but it was cute that they didnt want him to leave that bad.

Landon: He is 6 years old, and he has been through alot. A few years ago Landon fell off a fence and broke his arm. As if that wasnt hard enough, they then realized he had developed compartmental disease. This means that all the muscle in his arm was dying and if they didnt preform surgrey it would spead. During this surgery they went in and removed all the muscle form his arm, he was told that he wouldnt be able to move it again. His mom once told me a story of what happened before one of the many surgeries he has had to have. His mom was scared and she asked  him if he was scared and he said something along the lines of  "No, because i know heavenly father will keep me safe." It really is true that children are like little angels. Through the many surgeries Landon has made alot of progress. he can now wiggle his fingers, which is truely a miracle. Even though this little guy doesnt have full movement of his hand/arm he still does things he did before. He still loves to ride his bike, play baseball, he loves video games, and anything else like a normal little boy. He has been a huge example to me. i hope i have been one for him.

Logan: He is the youngest, 4 years old i believe. Logan is a little stinker but he loves me. He is the one i would spend most my time with. He loved playing nintendo with me or playing on the tramp. Sometimes he could be a real turd, but i still loved being with him. as weird as it sounds i could honestly consider him one of my best friends. i would always have fun with him!! He loves frooties, and bubble gum. so when ever he was out of control i told him if he was good for hte rest of the week i would get him one for a treat. Then for the rest of the week he would listen to me. I felt so bad one day Logan hit me, and i told his mom. That night he had to sit in time out for along time until he said he wouldnt hit me again, but he never did hit me again. Landon and him were usually the trouble makers who go into fights, but usually i could control them. USUALLY ha ha. It was so sad one day i came to baby sit thiem and Logan had a huge burn going across the check. He didnt know that curling irons were hot and he stuck it on his face. it was so so sad. but i love that little boy.

i had so many fun adventures with them, and i miss seeing them everyday, they always made my day. i miss them.

Work. Work. Work.

Recently i have started my first job, and i love it. I work at a place in Orem, UT called cooks green house. It is such a relaxing enviorment even though we are also very busy. I have made many friends their and i love my bosses... It is a family bussiness. Grandma and Grandpa started and own the place and  all of the sons and a few of the daughters help run it. They are all very smart and know eveyrthing about flowers/ gardening. it is a very beautiful place to work because of all the amazing flowers. I usually am planting things or working on the cash register. i like planting things a little better because i dont know much about flowers yet and i dont get asked questions back there.
I man in my ward named Tony Cook is how i got the job. i love Tony. We share the same birthday so we consider each other birthday buddies. He is always so nice to me and i owe him big time for this job opportunity.

The people i usually am put to work with are Derek, Austin, or Jessica. I adore all three of them!! Aust and Derek are fun to hang with, and Jess and i get along so great. Jess and I both find our bosses/managers attractive in atleast one way of more. They are all so nice to me and help me out when i need it. Everyone there seems to get along great. I love the people and the enviorment. There is also a lady there who works with us. her name is Maria. She speaks little engilish and when we work together she tries to teach me some spanish. I love it. i dont remember or learn much but its still fun.

Alot of people dont like work, but my first experience has been great

Today someone talked to me about working in general, and he said "If you love the work you do then you won't work a single day in your life." and its true. we have the power to have a good attitude about work, and i always try to. But he said if you have a good attitude and you show passion in what you do then people will notice, and they will come back to your work. Not just for the stuff there, but even just to see you. you may not be the smartest person around but if you try your hardsest, and be the best you can then people are going to notice. I now believe that with a good attitude you will do well in the work place, no matter where it is.

I LOVE WORKING AT COOKS GREEN HOUSE!!!! 

Caitlyn Lee

This is my best friend Caitlyn. She is also called cait, Caitie, and Lou(just like me). I have known her for five years, and she has always been a good friend of mine. i remember one night in the middle of spring we pretended it was halloween. we got all dressed up and went trick-or-treating in my neighborhood. everyone got a good kick out of it. i love days like that. one of my favorite times was when we danced in the rain.. it was by far one of my favorite memories. We've had many fun times together, and have been through many trials together as well. Caitlyn is beautiful, and she has always had a boy friend. I have always been a little jealous of her that boys come to her that easy! She has always stood up for me, and been there when i need her. I am ashamed to say that I haven't always been like that for her. Im grateful that even i wasnt always there for her she is still forgiving and willing to be my friend. There have been counteless times that she has talked to me while i cried and i know that i can go to her whenever i need her. she is always gonna be there for me. Who knows what the future will bring but i know i can rely on her. and i hope she knows that she can rely on me too. i love her.

Why..

A few nights ago a girl from my school shot herself.. It has been the 3rd death at my school this year, and the second scuicide. It's made me realize how important each individual person is to someone else, and how fragile life really is. We can't be rude or judgemental of people because you never know what someone is going through. It could be the boy struggling while his parents get a divorce, an girl who isn't eating cause she thinks she is fat, or a girl contemplating scuicide. You have to be careful what you say to and about others because it could be the last thing you say to them. Death of one person can effect the lived of many!!! For example the girl I'm taking about. I dint even know her and yet what has happened to her has effected my life majorly!! It's a shame that someone could hurt that bad and no one even notice. It reminds me of rascal flatts song why:


It must've been in a place so dark you couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin' third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage, you shined just like the sun

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried

'Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song, your absolutely beautiful song

...well r.i.p jade little. Even though I don't know you personally I know you will be missed!!

I've had many people walk into my life and then walk out, but they have all been good examples to me. Of course I'm sad when they leave. How could i not be when they've hade such a big effect on me. Often times I would become depressed and not want to continue on. Then I found this quote:

"When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves. It doesn't mean they are bad people... It just means their part in your story is over"

It made me realize that I don't really NEED anyone except for myself and my savior (Jesus Christ). I do believe that those people came into my life for a reason, but when they leave I've learned my lesson from them. So instead if being sad I try to get on my knees and thank God for sending those people into my life.       

School bleh

"The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet."-Aristotle

School.. Bleh it can be such a drag sometimes, but sometimes i also love it. Class can be boring but it can be way cool too. Right now I'm taking American sign language!! I love that class the teacher is actually deaf, but im learning lots and I'm learning well. My least favorite class is English. English has always been one of my worst subjects!! And it doesnt help that i hate my teacher. She always accuses me of cheating and i don't cheat!!
Anyways the purpose of this post is to recognize not only the importance of school, but taking every opportunity we have to learn something new. Like the quote says, learning everything can be hard, take alot of work, and often times very confusing!! But if we hang in there and keep trying it'll be worth it in the end. Knowledge is something that is very important. It'll help you excel in life and it's also the only thing I believe we can take with us when we die. In my eyes you have to go to school anyway. So why not make the most of it and learn as much as possible. School isn't a bad thing, but it's not always fun. It is there for your benefit though.
So go to school and receive a good education!!

Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift!
"I really don't think life is about the I-could-have-beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don't mind the failure but I can't imagine that I'd forgive myself if I didn't try"

I love her!! I seem to always find a way to relate her songs to my life. In my eyes she is one of the most talented people ever!! This is her speak now prologue and it is truly amazing:

" ‘Speak now or forever hold your peace,’ the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It’s a last chance for protest, a moment that makes everyone’s heart race, and a moment I’ve always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasise about bursting into a church, saying what they’d kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens.

Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I’ve begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.

I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back regretting the moments we didn’t speak up. When we didn’t say ‘I love you.’ When we should’ve said ‘I’m sorry.’ When we didn’t stand up for ourselves or someone who needed help.

These songs are made up of words I didn’t say when the moment was right in front of me. There songs are open letters. Each is written with a specific person in mind, telling them what I meant to tell them in person. To the beautiful boy whose heart I broke in December. To my first love who I never thought would be my first heartbreak. To my band. To a mean man I used to be afraid of. To someone who made my world very dark for a while. To a girl who stole something of mine. To someone I forgive for what he said in front of the whole world.

Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you’ll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you’ll stutter and you’ll walk away embarrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you’ll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying ‘I could’ve, but it’s too late now.’

There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you’ll know it.
I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now"
-Taylor swift

Just by reading that you have to think that she is a wonderful person. Truly she has effected me and inspired me. Her songs, her words are something I can always count on when I need a friend. Not only is she talented, she is also beautiful!! I love her and I lover her music. They are both inspiring to me and many other people as well.

If I could develope any talent it would be the ability to say the right thing at the right time. This is hard for me at times becuase i am more of a listener. I dont always know what to say, especially at the right place and right time. It can be difficult to do that. But maybe i need to take Taylors advice, and simple just "Speak Now." So what if you say the wrong thing, it isnt the end of the world. Who knows maybe what you said needs to be heard. You will never know if you keep silence.