Robert The Cowboy.

I just wanted to say thanks to my Friend Robert.. Recently he took a look at The Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Although he doesnt have the same beliefs about it as i do i am still very grateful for him taking a look. It truely means alot to me. I stilll love him like a brother even though he doesnt believe the same thing as me. i was taught to love someone even if our feelings on things are the same.
"As i have loved you, Love one another." Robert is a great guy and I'm thankful for the opportunity God has given me to get to know him. So thanks Robert. Your like a brother. Love ya Bro... XXX

Youth Confrence 2011

Come Follow Me As I Follow Christ
(The reason the I is red is because in WWII men had a red one on their shoulder and if you followed them they lead you away from danger. We being leaders of Christ also want to lead you away from danger.)

Youth Conferenc 2011 was amaizng.

I am on the Stake Youth Council and I had the honor of helping plan this wonderful weekend. Its not that the activites were even better then all the other years of youth conference. This year i just had the most amazing attitude!  Let me give you a run through of what happened.

Day 1:
We met at the church where i then conducted in front of 300 or so youth and gave a quick talk... My talk Said: "This week the youth of our stake were challanged to read the talk 'Jesus: The Perfect Leader' by President Spencer W. Kimball. I would like to read the part to you that stood out most to me.

Each of us has more opportunities to do good and to be good than we ever use. These

opportunities lie all around us. Whatever the size of our present circle of effective influence, if we

were to improve our performance even a little bit, that circle would be enlarged. There are many

individuals waiting to be touched and loved if we care enough to improve in our performance.

We must remember that those mortals we meet in parking lots, offices, elevators, and elsewhere

are that portion of mankind God has given us to love and to serve.

Being leaders of christ means making a difference to everyone around you. I know its hard but for the next few days I would like to challange all of you to step outside of your friend group and get to know someone new. Touch other peoples lives as well as your own."

Then  we introduced the speaker. This marvoulous mans name was Brother Kelly Ogden. He spoke to us on being happy!!! He told us that our God is a happy God and he wants us to be happy too. We talked about how happiness is always a choice no matter what the curcimstances/situation. If you have a good attitude your going to have fun, and why wouldnt you want to have a good  attitude? You could either sit around and complain about something you have to do anyway, or you could have a good time doing it. The choice is always yours.  God put the phrase "cheer up" or "be of good cheer" 12 times in the scriptures. Obviously he wants us to be happy. So choose to be. Like President Hinkley said "Don't be a pickle sucker." It was a good way to start off youth conference. With the encouragement to have a good attitude.
After Brother Kelly Ogdens talk we all got in cars and drove up to Salt Lake City. Our first stop was Globus International. What we did there was box up usable medical items, and clothers. The medical items will go all over the world and most of the clothes were sent to tornado victims in Missouri. It was a very neat experience, we helped alot of people.
After the service project we then headed up to Utah State University were we would be staying. We had an amazing lunch and then went to listen to a speaker. He spoke to us about using the media to help spread missionary work. He told us about sites like http://mormon.org/ , using facbook/texting to share testimonies. It was a very good talk. We Then had a 30 minute break, I crashed on the couch. I was exhausted.

We then had Brother John Bytheway come speak to us and he did an amazing job he talked to us about the articles of faith whcih are.

1. We believe in God, the Eternal Father, and in His Son, Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost.

2. We believe that men will be punished for their own sins, and not for Adam's transgression.

3. We believe that through the atonement of Christ, all mankind may be saved, by obedience to the laws and ordinances of the Gospel.

4. We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the Gospel are: first, Faith in the Lord Jesus Christ; second, Repentance; third, Baptism by immersion for the remission of sins; fourth, Laying on of hands for the gift of the Holy Ghost.

5. We believe that a man must be called of God, by prophecy, and by the laying on of hands by those who are in authority, to preach the Gospel and administer in the ordinances thereof.

6. We believe in the same organization that existed in the Primitive Church, namely, apostles, prophets, pastors, teachers, evangelists, and so forth.

7. We believe in the gift of tongues, prophecy, revelation, visions, healing, interpretation of tongues, and so forth.

8. We believe the Bible to be the word of God as far as it is translated correctly; we also believe the Book of Mormon to be the word of God.

9. We believe all that God has revealed, all that He does now reveal, and we believe that He will yet reveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.

10. We believe in the literal gathering of Israel and in the restoration of the Ten Tribes; that Zion (the New Jerusalem) will be built upon the American continent; that Christ will reign personally upon the earth; and, that the earth will be renewed and receive its paradisiacal glory.

11. We claim the privilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the dictates of our own conscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them worship how, where, or what they may.

12. We believe in being subject to kings, presidents, rulers, and magistrates, in obeying, honoring, and sustaining the law.

13. We believe in being honest, true, chaste, benevolent, virtuous, and in doing good to all men; indeed, we may say that we follow the admonition of Paul--We believe all things, we hope all things, we have endured many things, and hope to be able to endure all things. If there is anything virtuous, lovely, or of good report or praiseworthy, we seek after these things.

-Joseph Smith

He taught us that Articles 1-12 is what we believe, and Article 13 is becoming what we believe. Believeing and Being are two whole different things. You can believe in honesty, but are you honest yourself? He also encouraged us to not follow others of the world, dare to be different. He showed a picture of a bunch of sheep running off a cliff. A lot fo them couldnt see the cliff becuase there were so many sheep in front of them, but one sheep was going the other direction saying "excuse me, excuse me, excuse me." He compared it to us and told us to ne the sheep going the oppaisite way and set an example to others to follow. You always have people watching you, and your always going to have people following you. So be sure to lead them in the right direction.

After John Bytheway we played water games. It was a blast. Flirting with boys, soaking my bishop as he sprayed us all with a hose, water game races, and much more. Many had fun and a few didn't. This is their own fault for the unwillingness to participate.  After water games we went and got ready for dinner/the dance. (while i got ready my mom had to blow dry my bra. haha) The food all weekend was awesome. it always tasted so good!!! After we ate we then went to the dance. I daanced every slow song and encouraged all the boys I know to dance with someone each slow song. I danced with the most amazing guy, but ill tell you more about him later. After the dance the SYC members stayed to help clean up. After we got everything all clean i walked back to the dorms with Blake, Skyler, Adam, Heather, and Jessica. I had so much fun with them. Those two girls know how to have fun, and the boys are gentlemen and very respectful to women. I love being a memeber of the Stake Youth Council. I stayed up all night with Jessica, Maddy, and McCall. Those girls are like my 3 little sisters. I love them all dearly! 

Day 2:

Kay Lynn, My Mom (Vicki), Me, Jessica

We all woke up and hiked Ensign peak. It was amazing looking over he SLC valley when we reached the top. It was gorgeous. After we finished hiking down we ate the most amazing breakfast burritos. I hate breakfast burritos, but these were good!! Then we began hiking down to temple square. All along the way we had speaker talk to us, but the one i remember most was about a man who would walk 22 miles to work on the temple because it was his calling. Well one day the man was milking his cow and she kicked him, they had to amputate his leg. He then carved himself a fake leg and limped 22 miles to the temple and 22 miles back home. This strong man reminds me of the quote given by John Taylor "If you do not magnify your callings, God will hold you responsible for those whom you might have saved had you done your duty." This man must have been a strong believer of that. Im glad I got to help plan this youth conference i hope that i also did magnify my calling.
After this hike we then again ate lunch and then had a rotation of activities. I however didnt get to participate in the activities because last minute I was in charge of one. I was in charge of games, and it was a blast. Each game group that came through the rotation was different. Some would be more willing to participate, and some even got crazy and almost out of hand. I had fun though. After this we all headed home and met for dinner. We ate again and then had an amazing analogy and testimony meeting.  The analogy was for the atonement. Rememeber how i said id talk about that boy later. well now is the time.

Skyler and Me

A man named Bishop Bentley taught the analogy. It started like this. "Who wnats a doughnut?" Almost everyone raised their hand (excpet me cause i hate doughnuts) Then he said. "Who will do 10 Pushups for a doughnut?" He then called an amazing boy named Skyler Payne up. Skyler stood on the stage with him. He then started reading names off a list, and one by one people would come up. Each person he would ask.."Do you want a doughnut?" They would answer "Yes." He would then turn to Skyler and ask "Skyler will you do ten push ups so this person may have a doughnut." This went on for about 45 minutes. Soon people started saying they didnt want a doughtnut because they didnt wanna see Skyler suffer, but Skyler had to do 10 push ups anyway for a doughnut they didnt even want. This was to shos that Christ suffered for all our sins. Even the ones willing to waste the atonement and not use it to repent. It was hard to see Skyler suffer as he did around 410 push ups, but he changed alot of peoples lives as did Bishop Bently. It was an amazing way to end youth conference.

Youth conference was an amazing experience and i can honestly say it turly strengthed my testimony of christ, and also my testimony of the effects good freinds have on you.

COME FOLLOW ME AS I FOLLOW JESUS CHRIST.

Max!

-Louis Sabin : "A dog doesn't care if you're rich or poor, big or small, young or old. He doesn't care if you're not smart, not popular, not a good joke-teller, not the best athlete, nor the best-looking person. To your dog, you are the greatest, the smartest, the nicest human being who was ever born. You are his friend and protector."

Recently I bought a puppy, with out my parents permission. It's the best mistake I've ever made. He is a cute little guy, and I'm very glad to have him. He truly is my best friend. Let's face it people aren't reliable. We trust people, but there is always a risk. A dog you cam tell anything, you can do anything, and he will not judge you. I believe a dog is the only living thing you can hit for being bad and then the next second they are right back to you. Wagging their tail, and looking at you with those puppy dog eyes just begging for Your attention. A dogs love is continues no matter what. Like the quote says you don't have to be anything special but to your dog your the most amazing person in the world. Dogs are trustworthy, comforters, loyal, kind, and loving. Sounds like the most amazing best friend in the world to me. I love max(: he helps me out alot even though he is just a pup!! I love him and know he will always be there for me.

Now the hard part. Training him(:

Everything is not what it seems.

We all make assumptions. It's a normal thing, and we do it all the time. We do it when we read books, when we see people walking down the streets, in classes, at church, at home. Everywhere we go, everyone we see. We are bound to assume things, but I don't think that is wrong. The wrong thing in my eyes is spreading what you assume. Especially if it is harsh to the other persons reputation. The fact is all we know about people is what's on the outside.
"A ‎15 year old girl holds her 1 year old son. People call her a slut. No one knows she was raped at 13. People call a girl fat. No one knows she has a serious disease which causes her to be overweight. People call an old man ugly. No one knows he had a serious injury to his face while fighting for our country during the vietnam war."

You don't know what anyone is going through. How could you possibly know unless you have heard straight from there own lips. You can't believe gossip cause anyone can make that up. You can't believe what you see, because looks can be decieveing.You never know what anyones going through. Even if you do know the story you have no way of knowing how they felt, you never know what they experienced until you go through it yourself. 

Recently I read a childrens book called Mr. Peabody's apples" and it really taught me a lot. The story is about a man who lived in a small town. He was a teacher and a baseball coach and everyone loves him. One day a boy see's him take an apple from a fruit stand, and walk away with out paying. Well it spreads and pretty soon the whole town knows. Well Mr. Peabody finds out through a small boy named Billy who has always looked up to him. Mr. Peabody takes Billy to the fruit stand to talk to the owner, and Billy learns that Mr. Peabody pays for his apples in advance. Billy runs off to tell the boy who stated the rumor. That boys name was Tim. Tim the rushes over to Mr. Peabody's to apologize. When Tim gets there Mr. Peabody tells him to meet him at the field with a pillow. When they get there Mr. Peabody cuts open the pillow and has Tim shake out all the feathers. Tim asks "that's all I have to do for your forgiveness?" Mr. Peabody says "no. Now pick them all up." Mr. Peabody then explains that the feathers are like the people who have heard that rumor and it is nearly impossible to clean up the mess. Mr. Peabody says "next time don't be so quick to judge someone and remember the power of your words."
Our words are strong and what we say can spread faster then a wild fire. Part of a quote I love is
" For attractive lips,
Speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes,
Seek out the good in people."-Audrey Hepburn
In my opinion there is always good in people, you just have to be willing to find it. Also don't spread things. Even if you know for a fact it's true. It's not your place to tell. If you make an assumption ask the person, because things aren't always what they seem.

Trust.

trust - the trait of believing in the honesty and reliability of others

"It takes years years to build, and a few seconds to destroy"

Trusting, and being trusted. It happens to all of us we all trust in someone, and maybe we are all trusted by atleast someone.. But trust can hurt. You can be the one being hurt or the one doing the hurting. And I'm sure well all of done both of those too. Sometimes it's by mistake, and maybe even sometimes on purpose, but no matter what it's still wrong. Like Bob Marley said
"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for."
In my life I have found a handful of people worth suffering for. My family. The fact is they have hurt me, and I have hurt them. But your family is always gonna love you no matter what, and your gonna love them. Your family is the one's who will unintentionally hurt you. It's your friends you've gotta watch out for. In high school many kids live off drama. It's the fuel that keeps them going and it's sickening. I'm not saying that I've never done this because I have. I've listened too it and participated in it, and it's not right. It hurts everyone and including yourself. We have all learned that it's wrong to judge people, and in reality none of us want to be judged either. Have you ever noticed that the people who no one judges are the ones not judging anyone else?? I have, and I am often jealous of them. We need to learn to just do our own thing. Dress how we want, act how we want, do what we want, and not care what other people think. We have to learn to rely on ourselves and realize that we don't need to share our secrets, we can but we can also deal with it on our own. We need to learn that if someone trust you with a secret... Keep it that way. It is not something you should be sharing because it's not yours to share. If that person wants others to know, they will tell them. But it can be hard to keep a secret, it's how most of us our. We can't keep things inside we have an itch to tell someone, but we have to learn to control that sensation to scratch! Often times we trade gossip for popularity, but to me it's not worth it. I don't want to be known as the girl with all the dirt, I want to be that girl that anyone can come to for anything. Someone reliable for other people that they know there secret is safe with. I wanna be someone who is there when you need a friend. I don't want to fall in the horrible lies of gossip (including spreading or listening.) I wanna be a sweet girl, one you will want to confide and trust in. I want to say sorry when it is necessary, and always forgive. When I look back on my life from this point on I don't want there to be any regrets. I want to take a risk and trust, and I want to be trusted.

The Few. The Proud. The Marines.

"From the halls of Montezuma To the shores of Tripoli, we fight our country's battles In the air, on land, and sea. First to fight for right and freedom, And too keep our honor clean, We are proud to claim the title Of United States Marine."

My friend/older brother, is leaving for the USMC (United States Marine Corps). I am really going to miss him and his great advice.
Being apart of the marines is an honorable thing. If you join you are serving and protecting this country. There are also some good benefits that come from being a marine, but it is also a scary thought. You are laying your life on the line for other people, you never know what will happen to you, or what will happen standing right next to you. I was reading through a book, its about life as a marine...  I few qoutes i liked from this book are

"After surviving a walk through fire, there is little else that can burn."

"In these hands, i have found the courage i need. And they will clear my way, NO MATTER WHERE I GO."

"The change is complete. We who camee to the United States Marine Corps in search of self have replaced confusion with meaning. All that was torn is whole again. We stand in formation as warriors proud and loyal. From here, we go with purpose. And we go as family. We have not yet reached a destination, but we have chosen a path, and that is the start. We have proven to ourselves that we can do more than any of us thought possible, and we know this is our tiem to change the world. This is our time to change the world. This is our Marine Corps. This is our calling. In shining moment, everything is possible, yet nothing is written. Prehaps that is the most exicting thing of all."

Soon Austin will be leaving for boot camp, boot camp last for 13 weeks. The 1st-4th week he will be learning about honor, courage, and commitment. The 5th-9th week recruits work on there combat skills, and Markman ship training. The 10th-13th week recruits combat and have basic warrior training. They also endure something called the crucible. Which i believe is the tests of all tests. It is a 54 hour test of endurance, and hash obsitcles. If that task is completed then he will atttend the Eagle, Globe and Anchor ceremony. He will return home for 10 well deserved days, and who knows what will happen form there.

Something it also says in the book is "If your young person is strong eenough to even consider such a noble path, you can already be proud" and i am proud of him..

"PROUD TO BELONG
For as long as our nation has stood, it has been the United States Marine Corps that has served as its sharpened spear. And from the moment brave souls first donned the Marine blue, there has been a simple oath: These few would stand side by side, no matter whatt. And we have. Together, we have moved mountain. Defended our nation. And when necessary defeneded our own. For more than two centuries now, a simple proies of unconditional togetherness ahs bonded those who seek a pure and noble destiny. the term for it is Semper Fidelis. Taken from the ancient Latin, it means 'Always Faithful.' This is why there are no ex-Marines. Only former Marines. Only warriors who have passed the torch."

Aust thanks for being such a good example to me. Love you like a Brother and I will miss you tons!

We played bigger or better and no one would take our stuff

All the little imperfections. . .

I'm not prefect, but neither is anyone else. We all screw up every now and then sometimes it's big, and sometimes it's little. But that doesn't change the fact that we screw up. Sometimes when we mess up we can hurt people we care about. I have done this a countless number of times. I can't take back the things I did but I can sincerely apologize. So if I have ever hurt you in anyway....just know that I am so sorry for what I did and I hope one day you'll find in your heart that you'll be able to forgive me.
Not only have I hurt people, but I've also been on the other side and been hurt before, and it hasn't always been easy to forgive, but it's something required of us by God. So I always try my hardest to do so.
When you forgive someone, you need to forgive them fully. You can't tell them they are forgiven and hold grudges. That will fix nothing. So dont forgive someone until you are ready. Other wise in my eyes it's pointless
Usually the hardest person to forgive is ourselves. Our mistakes are constantly in back of our mind. But that's only a bad thing if we let them bring us down. We all We all make mistakes sometimes but that doesn't make us bad people. It just means that when we fall down we need to get back up and try again no matter how many times we fall. Thats what makes us who we are. How hard we try to fix our mistakes.
We need to learn to look over peoples little imperfections and learn to look at what they have over come and what they are over coming. Trials are what makes each of us stronger, and all of our trials are different. And there is no way that you can possibly understand or feel what someone is going through. We all hurt and we all deal with that hurt a little different then everyone else. Some of us cry, some of us laugh, some of us inflict physical pain because it's easier to deal with then emotional, some of us get up and get physically active. We are all different and that isn't a bad thing.. There is just one thing we all need to do the same.. Forgive and forget, and say sorry when ever it is needed.

Last Summer...(:

Last summer i was a nanny for three little boys, and i loved them. i would wake up everyday at seven and go to baby sit till 1 in the afternoon. We all know little boys, and how if they get board they get into trouble. So instead of sitting around all day and watching t.v. i would take them to do things. I would take them hiking, to waterfalls, swimming, we would play water games in the backyard, picnics for lunch, and other things like that. They loved me and i loved them. In my eyes it was one of the most perfect ways to spend summer. i love kids and getting to be with 3 everyday was sometimes hard, but usually rewarding. Let me tell you about these 3 little boys that have been such a good example to me.

Luke: He is 8 years old, maybe nine now. He is a very smart good, it amazes me how much he knows. He can tell you almost anything you need to know about a car, and he is good at working with wood. He's favorite team is the San Deigo Chargers, and he wasnt too happy when LaDainian Tomlinson switched teams. Luke plays baseball, but likes all sports. He loves to go camping, hiking, dirt biknig, four-wheeling, fishing, and almost anything out doors. But he also enjoys watching t.v., playing computer games, or playing the play station. Sometimes he fights with his two younger brothers, but i consider him the peace maker. One of his best friends is my neighbor Cody. I love watching them play. They always are out having fun. Luke was always the one who listened to me the best. probably because he was the oldest. His two younger brothers look up to him very much and they'd always get uspet when he had to go to something like scouts. Usually i had to distract them so he could escape. It was sometimes a pain, but it was cute that they didnt want him to leave that bad.

Landon: He is 6 years old, and he has been through alot. A few years ago Landon fell off a fence and broke his arm. As if that wasnt hard enough, they then realized he had developed compartmental disease. This means that all the muscle in his arm was dying and if they didnt preform surgrey it would spead. During this surgery they went in and removed all the muscle form his arm, he was told that he wouldnt be able to move it again. His mom once told me a story of what happened before one of the many surgeries he has had to have. His mom was scared and she asked  him if he was scared and he said something along the lines of  "No, because i know heavenly father will keep me safe." It really is true that children are like little angels. Through the many surgeries Landon has made alot of progress. he can now wiggle his fingers, which is truely a miracle. Even though this little guy doesnt have full movement of his hand/arm he still does things he did before. He still loves to ride his bike, play baseball, he loves video games, and anything else like a normal little boy. He has been a huge example to me. i hope i have been one for him.

Logan: He is the youngest, 4 years old i believe. Logan is a little stinker but he loves me. He is the one i would spend most my time with. He loved playing nintendo with me or playing on the tramp. Sometimes he could be a real turd, but i still loved being with him. as weird as it sounds i could honestly consider him one of my best friends. i would always have fun with him!! He loves frooties, and bubble gum. so when ever he was out of control i told him if he was good for hte rest of the week i would get him one for a treat. Then for the rest of the week he would listen to me. I felt so bad one day Logan hit me, and i told his mom. That night he had to sit in time out for along time until he said he wouldnt hit me again, but he never did hit me again. Landon and him were usually the trouble makers who go into fights, but usually i could control them. USUALLY ha ha. It was so sad one day i came to baby sit thiem and Logan had a huge burn going across the check. He didnt know that curling irons were hot and he stuck it on his face. it was so so sad. but i love that little boy.

i had so many fun adventures with them, and i miss seeing them everyday, they always made my day. i miss them.

Work. Work. Work.

Recently i have started my first job, and i love it. I work at a place in Orem, UT called cooks green house. It is such a relaxing enviorment even though we are also very busy. I have made many friends their and i love my bosses... It is a family bussiness. Grandma and Grandpa started and own the place and  all of the sons and a few of the daughters help run it. They are all very smart and know eveyrthing about flowers/ gardening. it is a very beautiful place to work because of all the amazing flowers. I usually am planting things or working on the cash register. i like planting things a little better because i dont know much about flowers yet and i dont get asked questions back there.
I man in my ward named Tony Cook is how i got the job. i love Tony. We share the same birthday so we consider each other birthday buddies. He is always so nice to me and i owe him big time for this job opportunity.

The people i usually am put to work with are Derek, Austin, or Jessica. I adore all three of them!! Aust and Derek are fun to hang with, and Jess and i get along so great. Jess and I both find our bosses/managers attractive in atleast one way of more. They are all so nice to me and help me out when i need it. Everyone there seems to get along great. I love the people and the enviorment. There is also a lady there who works with us. her name is Maria. She speaks little engilish and when we work together she tries to teach me some spanish. I love it. i dont remember or learn much but its still fun.

Alot of people dont like work, but my first experience has been great

Today someone talked to me about working in general, and he said "If you love the work you do then you won't work a single day in your life." and its true. we have the power to have a good attitude about work, and i always try to. But he said if you have a good attitude and you show passion in what you do then people will notice, and they will come back to your work. Not just for the stuff there, but even just to see you. you may not be the smartest person around but if you try your hardsest, and be the best you can then people are going to notice. I now believe that with a good attitude you will do well in the work place, no matter where it is.

I LOVE WORKING AT COOKS GREEN HOUSE!!!! 

Caitlyn Lee

This is my best friend Caitlyn. She is also called cait, Caitie, and Lou(just like me). I have known her for five years, and she has always been a good friend of mine. i remember one night in the middle of spring we pretended it was halloween. we got all dressed up and went trick-or-treating in my neighborhood. everyone got a good kick out of it. i love days like that. one of my favorite times was when we danced in the rain.. it was by far one of my favorite memories. We've had many fun times together, and have been through many trials together as well. Caitlyn is beautiful, and she has always had a boy friend. I have always been a little jealous of her that boys come to her that easy! She has always stood up for me, and been there when i need her. I am ashamed to say that I haven't always been like that for her. Im grateful that even i wasnt always there for her she is still forgiving and willing to be my friend. There have been counteless times that she has talked to me while i cried and i know that i can go to her whenever i need her. she is always gonna be there for me. Who knows what the future will bring but i know i can rely on her. and i hope she knows that she can rely on me too. i love her.

Why..

A few nights ago a girl from my school shot herself.. It has been the 3rd death at my school this year, and the second scuicide. It's made me realize how important each individual person is to someone else, and how fragile life really is. We can't be rude or judgemental of people because you never know what someone is going through. It could be the boy struggling while his parents get a divorce, an girl who isn't eating cause she thinks she is fat, or a girl contemplating scuicide. You have to be careful what you say to and about others because it could be the last thing you say to them. Death of one person can effect the lived of many!!! For example the girl I'm taking about. I dint even know her and yet what has happened to her has effected my life majorly!! It's a shame that someone could hurt that bad and no one even notice. It reminds me of rascal flatts song why:


It must've been in a place so dark you couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin' third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage, you shined just like the sun

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried

'Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song, your absolutely beautiful song

...well r.i.p jade little. Even though I don't know you personally I know you will be missed!!

I've had many people walk into my life and then walk out, but they have all been good examples to me. Of course I'm sad when they leave. How could i not be when they've hade such a big effect on me. Often times I would become depressed and not want to continue on. Then I found this quote:

"When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves. It doesn't mean they are bad people... It just means their part in your story is over"

It made me realize that I don't really NEED anyone except for myself and my savior (Jesus Christ). I do believe that those people came into my life for a reason, but when they leave I've learned my lesson from them. So instead if being sad I try to get on my knees and thank God for sending those people into my life.