Your not that different after all... And in the end it still hurts

Kind of random but it's how I'm feeling unfortunately I've always known love to be simple and easy.. And life is just the thing that gets in the way... But I'm starting to think it isn't life anymore, maybe it's just me. It seems hard for people to love me, or to continuously love me.. I thought real love never changed, I guess I was wrong again. I really love this kid): he is the only boy that i could get to come to the bishop store house and do service with me, and come volunteer at my work just to spend more time with me, anytime or anything i needed he'd be there. I'm watching his love change for me right before my very eyes and I don't know what to do): I know we haven't been dating long but I have never wanted to keep something in my life so bad to see where it goes... He is so different, or so I thought. I thought this relationship would be better and different then the last one): but his love is changing for me too and pretty soon I will just be a thing in his past.. And that really hurts when you were hoping for the future): I'm starting to wonder if anyone will ever be able to love me forever, I honestly really doubt it and I can think or quite a few people who would agree. I'm not  lovable, I'm never enough, I'm never going to be enough for anyone especially him.  How can something go from so incredibly good to so incredibly bad so fast?): I would do whatever it takes to turn this around... But I don't think I'll get that chance. "But if you look close enough, you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, I mean if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back."-Nathan Scott... I guess I'm just not lucky... I'll keep looking for that hope though, and it's what I'll hold on to):