this week at work i met the most incredibly man.. his name was cal packer. now i only talked with him for 15-20 minutes, but he has changed my life forever. he came in to buy some shrubs, but it was hard to know what he wanted. you see cal's vocal cord snapped and he has a hard time talking, and people have an even harder time understanding. cal told me about his life, and im glad i took the time to hear it. he told me about his wife, and how she sent him out on a mission for two years and waited till her returned. they are old now and she is in a wheel chair, but he takes care of her. he then quoted a scripture to me.. proverbs 3:5-6 "trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. in all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." he was the sweetest man with the biggest heart, and i hope one day i will be able to meet him again. i hope that one day i will have a man like him, that will take care of me when im old and frail. because that is what love is really about. its about someone who is willing to do anything for you even if it hurts them. someone willing to give it their all, for all of time and eternity. he also reminded me that God can help us with anything, and if we dont know what to do he does, because he knows it all.  thanks cal for the sweet simple reminders

you may think im old fashioned, but to be honest i kind of am. i don't like all of this technology, i know it has its pros but it has a lot of cons too. sometimes... well actually all the time, i wish i lived in old western times. when boys tipped there hats when you walked by, and if they had something they really wanted to tell you they would track you down. cell phones make it too easy to talk to someone, especilly texting. i can't tell you how many times someone has texted me before talked to me in person, or only texted me and never talked to me in person at all. people even say things that they wouldn't normally because texting makes it easier to do so. i wish people now days had guts. guts to talk to me and ask me for my number instead of getting it off facebook. guts to walk up and as a girl on a date instead of texting me and asking... i absolutely hate cell phones.. i think they are important for very few things.. like emergencies, or keeping in touch with those who are far away. but it drives me absolutely insane how addicted people are to their phones. i hate when your hanging out with people and their are on their phones. when im with someone and they are on their phone it just shows me who or what their first priority is. it is their phone or the person that they are texting, what i have to say is unimportant. i just dont understand why texting is so important to us. would it be that hard for us to simply put our phones down and get to know the people we are with. people are always changing and you can always learn somthing new from them, you just have to pay attention and take the time to listen. what if someone was upset, but you never noticed because you couldnt look up from your phone long enough to see what was the matter.  i hate texting, i hate the fact that i turn to my phone when im bored. it bugs me that i do that. im not saying we shouldnt use our phones because thats not it at all. but would it really kill us or be that hard to keep it in our pockets when we are with people. show poeple how much they really do mean to  you. listen to them with out the interruption of a cell phone.

your my best friend:)

recently i discovered this thing called urban dictionary.. its a dictionary for "slang", but then i started typing names into it. like
Sage:"he is one of the most amazing guys you'll ever meet. he is an intelligent individual and is fun to be around. Sage is someone who is unlike anyone. he is best described as a hipster. he has random moments and laughs at things not many other people will. sage is a guy you can trust and count on. his smile will brighten your day no matter what. his hugs are amazing. they'll make you feel like not letting go. sage is someone who doesnt like to see the person he cares about down. hes definatly a guy you'll be sure to fall in love with because he is truly awesome."
there was also "fine as hell" and "a cool maintained attitude iwth thriving luck with sexuality. often trying new things with no fear. a person well liked by everyone. on everybodyes good side no matter what"
Then we looked up Matt his said
Matt:"a cute, adorable, sweet, random. funny, weird, and slightly insane boy. can make you smile no matter what is goin on or how mad you are at him and will make you cry at the littlest things. he shows equal affection to every girl he knows, and because of that will probably end up breaking your heart. hes a lover not a fighter, but doesnt know ow powerful his words can be. he always things hes done something wrong or screwd up in some way. he will always keep you wondering what is going on inside his head. and always keep you wondering on wheather or not waht hes saying is true. you will love and hate him all at the same time. but you will never want to leave him" there was also "an incredible guy. amazing in everysense hes a smooth talker, but he means everything he says hell treat you like a princess, has an adorable laugh and a bright smile. usually very cheerful and optimistic, despite how horrible the situation may be. can be harsh attimes for good reasons, but the amazing qualities cancel that out. the name matt means gift of god" and "matt. their names are common but they are rare. amazing kissers. perfect in everyway. usually tall and blonde."

haha i think some of these things are dead on. matt and sage are my best friends and i am so grateful for them. they have been here for me at the most crucial of times. and i will always be there for them. i love hanging out with boys. there are so many benefits to having boys as best friends rather then girls
1. they dont start rummors for no reason, or like they would say(sarcastically)"oh ya cause we just talk mad shit all the time"
2.they keep your secrets
3.they dont pms and are never rude unless you do something to piss them off
4.they wont try and steal the guy you like
5.they arent two faced
6.they stick up for you no matter what

 i love my two best friends. the only negative of having two boys as best friends is they wont take pictures with you. what stinkers! i am so glad that i can count on them. they are truly amazing and i am so grateful for them.

country must be country wide

i love being out in the country, and im not in it near enough. but when i am it usually turns out being the best day ever. a few weeks ago i went out to five mile with my friends angie and melia. we werent out there long, but it was worth it. and the cabelas trip after was mighty fine. we had fun:)
then last sunday my dad, brother, and i took our dogs out hiking. we were up in the mountains for about three hours. it was so relaxing and they dogs loved it. i cant wait for summer when i can do that more often.
and then yesterday my two best friends took me out west to go shooting. and i had a blast. yesterday was absolutely perfect, besides the fact Matt had to get stiches. he will get a awesome scar though. i shot the twenty-two and actually hit a few things. Sage shot the shot gun and made Matt deaf. and both their ears were ringing after shooting the 357 mag. then we hiked around for a little bit. when we got home while matt was getting stiches i looked at pictures of sage when he was little. they were quite cute.
lately all i listen to is country. im absolutely in love with it. there is so much you can learn from country music. like "dont blink, life goes faster then you think", "never let your praying knees get lazy, and love like crazy", "its always your favorite sins that do you in", "lifes too easy to be so damn complicated." almost every country song can teach you something and i love it.