forever should never be cut short.

its been a LONG time since i have written anything.. i really want to start getting back in the habit. so much has happened in my life, but they all have revolved around one thing (or i guess one person). Sage Peacock. my future husband.
yep that's right he asked me to marry him some time ago now. it was on September 16th. in other words the best birthday gift a girl could ask for. we haven't gotten married, and we still are unsure of when. we are hoping for an eternal marriage, something that will last forever.
i believe that too often these days people just give up. they decide that the marriage/person they would once do anything for simply isn't worth it. and in deciding this it leads to divorce. but the truth is marriage isn't easy. hell, love isn't even easy. it is something that has to be worked for not just by one of the two, but by both. its working together, as a team. it was best put by the notebook when noah says "So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to WORK AT this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday" 
i just do not see how you could fall out of love with someone when you are working towards them and putting so much time in to them? 
more reasons why we lose sight of love is because we only love the part of us we see in another. you are supposed to love another because they are different not because they are the same as us. you are two different people joined together as one. he is supposed to be the part of her that she is not. it is what makes you a good team, that you are different. another stupid reason as to why love dies, is that we lose sight of all the good the other is doing and only focus on the bad. instead of being grateful for what is done all that is thought about was what was not done. we get so caught up in where we want to be we forget to sit back and realize all that is trying to be done to get there.
it isn't supposed to be easy, other wise everyone would do it. it needs to be hard. the hard times is what brings you closer. when struggle, but both try you really do realize the lengths one is willing to take for another. 
maybe i just don't know.. maybe i'm just not experienced.. maybe even sometimes there is a good reason not to work at it. but i promise you, myself, and my man.. that i will never take the easy road out. never will i consider divorce because he means that much to me, and our future means that much to me. i do not just want him now. this kind of love is not to be a temporary thing. its something that should be preserved. 

i look forward to a long life with him, and the life after. im excited to grow old with the man of my dreams, the man who truly is perfect for me. i look forward to a happy life with him, where we continue to make each other laugh. because if he is not happy then i am not. i cant wait to continue to fall hopelessly in love with him as i learn knew things about him almost every day. he honestly amazes me.  he has the biggest heart, and not only does he put me before him self, but he puts everyone else there too. all to many times he says things that shock me and make me so giddy inside. i love growing closer to him. and cant believe how close this last year has brought us. it  is in times of struggle that i realize all that he really would do for me. he is one of kind, and i hope that he never changes. because i know that he is the kind of man who will fight for me, who will struggle for me, he will always stand by my side. he has the best sense of humor and is never serious, i laugh on a daily basis, as a matter of fact i do not remember the last day where i did not laugh. 
he is the best team mate i could ask for. i thank God for him. i know he is in my life for a reason. that reason is to be mine to hold not only till death do i part, but even until after that. 
friends come and go, one day your children will get married, and all you will have left is the person you said "i do" to. so i beg you, do not rush love, let it take its time. let things fall together, so that they won't have to fall apart. make sure it is right, make sure they truly are the one for you. because its not just for better. its for better or worse. that means your going to have to stick it out, and that it won't always be easy. because we are people so mistakes will be made. one of the most important things you can do... forgive. because your going to have to do a lot of it. try to remember that just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. and just when you think it can't get any better.. it can.